I have weird dreams. Ask anyone who knows me and they’ll tell you. My dreams are full of death, violence, and most of all, fear. Well I had a dream the other night and while I really want to write it down, there are some very… um, intense parts, shall we say? that I’m having a hard time writing down. I’ve never written anything like it, and it’s so full of such strong emotions, it would be wrong to leave it out of the dream. So how do I write something so intense? I’ve been trying to write it for a while, but I’m starting to get a panic attack. See, when I write, I feel what I write. I’m not the best writer ever, but I pour my emotions into my stories. I suppose that’s why I’ve not posted much online. Blog posts are easy, they’re just my rambling thoughts. Stories are so much more complex… The whole dream itself would make a very interesting story, probably a short story, but a story nonetheless. It would just have a very small audience due to the content. But I think I’m ok with that, because I don’t even know that I’d want anyone to read it. It’s so personal. I dreamt it, I experienced it. Sometimes my dreams feel too real, more real than reality, and I can’t get them out of my head. The feelings are too extreme.
So you know what? I will continue to try to write it down and maybe some day I might be brave enough to show someone.